Yes, I am right now. I can’t completely explain what it’s like, but I can honestly say that its the best feeling in the world. You find yourself constantly thinking about that person at all times. You catch yourself smiling at the thought of them. You slowly begin to realize that you like them more than you ever expected to. You will want to spend every second of every day with them, even if you are doing absolutely nothing at all. You will laugh at almost everything they do because you really find them that funny. They are just like you in every way, they are you’re other half. When you aren’t with them the seconds feel like hours and the hours feel like months. After that person says “I love you” for the first time you want to cry because you’ve never heard anyone say those words quite like they do. Their kiss becomes your caffeine, you need it just to make it through the day. Their smile and touch becomes your sunshine. You will love all of their flaws. To you they will be perfect. You start to realize that you’ve never been so sure of anything like you are about wanting to spend the rest of your life with them. You start to make their happiness your happiness. Every time you have to say goodbye, even if its just for a moment you want to cry because you know that that means you’ll have to be without them. You start to find it hard to breathe when you look at them, and now home to you is in their eyes. You will open up to them like you never have with anyone else. They will become your world, your best friend, your everything. Soon sex won’t mean just sex to you, it will mean so much more. It will feel like nothing else in the world really matters. You can actually feel how much you love and care about each other. Pretty soon sex will be making love. After you make love you will get closer and closer each time. You will start to love mornings because you know you will be able to wake up and see that person. You will want to hug them and never let them go because you feel like you’ll lose them. Time will start to go by a lot faster now. You will realize that every wish you make as a kid about falling in love really does come true. You then know that your place in this world is with them and that nothing else really matters. Love won’t even describe what you feel for them, because it will be so much more than that.
Have you ever just looked at someone and thought, “I really love you”. They’re just talking or humming or watching a movie or reading a book or laughing or something, and there’s something about them in that moment—their body is alive, there’s a light in their eyes, something—that makes you think, “I just really love you.” It’s a weird sensation to think this, but it’s pretty awesome that we can feel this way about another being.
Sex is more than just physical to me. I feel like it’s the closest you’ll ever be to someone. Feeling and seeing every part of their body. Even the parts they hide from everyone else. You’re seeing someone at their most vulnerable moment. All skin. Skin touching skin. And the way they breathe, where you’ll either love every inch of that person or never love it all. And to me, that makes sex so much more than sex, and that part is scary.